Scary and Spooky - Where do unborn babies go?

Before I start blogging, I want to warn you that this post is a little spooky so if you do not want to be spooked, please do not read further.
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If you have read my earlier post, my colleague's wife has suffered a second miscarriage. He was finding a chance to share with me his spooky encounter but he was afraid how I would feel but he finally plucked up his courage yesterday.

His Story ... Let's call him Dan.

Dan's sister-in-law got them a "fo pai" (direct translation is buddha pendant) from Thailand. They were wearing it when they entered a hair salon. There was a hairdresser who looked like a Lao Beng. He asked him if he was wearing a fo pai because he could sense it. At this junction, we still can rationalise and say that he has seen the string sticking out from the collar and could guess it could be a buddha pendant. My colleague nodded his head. Lao Being went on and asked if his wife miscarried recently when she entered the hair salon later. Dan told me that his balls dropped to the floor when he heard that. He nodded his head again. Scary spoiler ahead ...
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Lao Beng then went on to tell Dan that he could sense the spirit of the first unborn to be lingering and it was blocking the second pregnancy which had led to a second miscarriage. Dan's balls probably had fallen off and shrivelled. Lao Beng then told Dan that he and his wife could go to this temple for the monk to help the unborn spirit to move on. Scary spoiler coming ...
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Dan and his wife reached the temple. The monk asked them to chant after him and visualise how the unborn looked like to them. They already have a two year old boy. The two year old boy was muttering, "Di Di Di Di" when they were chanting. (Di Di means brother) The parents were spooked because they were also visualising a male when they told each other later. I was not offended when Dan told me because I told him that I myself had entertained that thought before because I had some strange encounters. Scary spoiler ahead ...
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After my losses, there were times when some waiters or waitresses would distribute and prepare 6 sets when there were clearly only 5 people present. If there is only one isolated incident, I probably would dismiss it. But then strangely, when I went to fix my car key, I always looked for this particular guy. Every time I went, we would have a nice short chat. He was such a nice guy because he would accompany me to find my car in the carpark. The last time I went, he asked me where my kids were. I recoiled in shock and replied that I had no kids. He told me not to bluff him because he said that I had always brought my kids along. I told him that I wasn't kidding and if what he said was true, it would be scary. He laughed and we did not talk further. Next, a pork seller who always gestured to me to buy his pork also asked me why I had not brought my kids along that day. Recently, another incident spooked me. This uncle selling Kopi was someone that I always said hello and bye bye. Sometimes we chit chatted. One day, we were standing side by side in the queue and he asked me why I had not brought my kids with me that day. I asked him gently, "Have you seen them?" in Mandarin. He looked like he froze and he ignored my question. I also dared not push further. I confided in my friend and she told me that most probably, I looked like someone in the neighbourhood. I thought that that was highly possible so I left it as it is until Dan shared with me his recent encounters.

Actually, after my every loss, my pastor would pray a special prayer with me to break all ungodly soul ties the baby might have with me and to release the baby to heaven. She would say certain words and I would have to repeat after her. But I had not shared with her these encounters. Immediately after what Dan had told me, I messaged my pastor that I would want to call her but she was in Malaysia and would only be back tomorrow. Maybe I need another cleansing session. I told my husband about it and we both told each other that we are not scared. I was worried just in case, why they could not move on to heaven. I want them to be happy and complete.

After hearing from Dan and recalling my own experiences, I went to search for something that I had never searched before which was the title of my blog post. If you have a weak heart, please do not do that because there were so many theories written that it might be too scary for you. Uncomfortable spoiler ahead ...
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One of the theories that caught my eye was that the reason why some baby souls cannot progress to heaven because the mother was too guilty and depressed. They feel sad for the mom and linger around, hoping to tell her that it was okay because it was their choice to leave and even if it was an abortion, they understood the earthly decisions that the mother had taken. Another theory was that the mother would feel depressed and guilty because of the deadness that had happened.

Whatever it is, this has spurred me on to stop feeling guilty or depressed. I shall renounce every negative thought, and every thought that is self-condemining.

Strangely, although Dan had shared with such a spooky thing, for the first time in a long time, I slept like a baby. When I woke up today, I felt like I had a good dream and sleep.