Land of Lemons

Today I reported for work and it is those type of work whereby there would be long stretches of not doing anything. We are a team of three and my colleague M brought along a book, me a laptop and newspapers and N, brought nothing. Let me tell you something about N. Let's call her Nurina. She is pregnant now. Although she is three months old pregnant, she looks like she is 11 months. I am not trying to be mean because I want to give hope to those sistas out there who are very overweight, that Nurina, who looks very huge, is pregnant! I am so happy for Nurina because she had a previous miscarriage. Because of the long stretches of having nothing to do because we had no customers, we started chatting. I knew that M was not close to Nurina and I knew that Nurina just crossed her 13 week. So when M went away to get something, I took the chance to ask after Nurina. I knew she was spotting some time back so I asked her about her spotting. Guess what? She told me it was not spotting! It

Today I woke up and felt so down because my stupid temperature is just not rising and it is already day 20 don't know what. My heart shook in disbelief as I grappled with the fact that this cycle - I have not even ovulated, let alone, ovulated late. Frustrated, tired, ridiculed, guilty, I decided to just sleep. Part of me is reluctant to write this post because Google sent me some password to verify my address so that they can pay me - therefore, it means that people are reading what I write and they are clicking on the advertisements! When people are reading what I write, I suddenly feel a burden not to burden them. Yes, I know, that people will feel validated that they share the same frustration but part of me also do not want to a whiner all the time and write some inspiring stuff. But I still decided to be selfish and write because today, I feel so sad and I do not know why. In order not to feel so down, I have to confront my devils. I shall go through why I feel this way.

Today I had staff bonding at USS. The rides were average since I had gone there four times. The company was good because I had some laughs. Did I just say that? Do I mean that my colleagues are clowns? No lah. I enjoyed the company. One of my colleagues was a very hardworking gal with a heart pure as snow and kind as a samaritan. But she has gone through two failed IVF cycles because she could not produce any good eggs. Her ovarian reserve is poor and her gynae says that she sort of has an early menopause. She is only in her very early thirties! Why kind and nice people like her have to endure such a terrible diagnosis? She has not given up. She is visiting Tong Chai and will do her third cycle soon. I am so shagged now. Luckily today don't need to do homework. Anyway, recently, I thought of a very funny idea. I told my hub that I have decided to play the role of dead fish. Wah, this role very good leh - just lie there. Surprisingly, he thinks it is very shiok. I secretly think t

It all started with some coffee talk in the staff canteen. It was hilarious. I was with two male colleagues and another female colleague. They were asking me why I changed my whatsapp photo into a couple pic and I told them that I noticed that those couple friends who act all lovey on social media and post their couple pics on whatsapp and whatever media all have kids! I know I am sounding like a lunatic but hey, it gave me an inspiration for this post. All those stupid silly ridiculous ideas we have tried just to increase our chances by that tiny bit every month. SO .... I decided to choose the most blissful looking couple photo I had and used that as my whatsapp profile pic. I told my hub about it and he gleefully followed suit and played along with my silly idea. We had wanted to change our FB pics too but in the end too lazy. At the table, my colleague who was also trying to have kids, texted her hub about this silly idea and he too, immediately changed his photo pic. So hilarious!

DAY 1 TO DAY 5 This is the period whereby your pituitary gland stimulate your 10 to 15 maturing eggs. I have to tell myself "It is a fresh beginning and a beautiful month!" Advice for Damp type I feel that my body is the damp type so I need to exercise to oxygenate my body. It is best that I avoid raw food, cold food, processed food, excess salt, too much soya, bananas, peanuts, oily nuts, cow's milk, ice-cream. Do not drink too much water with food. I have to eat more barley, anchovy, button mushrooms, celery, corn, garlic, jasmine tea, lemon, mackerel, onion, parsley, pumpkin, radish, turnip. Advice for Heat type I also think that my body is the heaty type. I am supposed to not exercise during Day 1 to 5 (this is in conflict with damp! So which one should I follow?) I can drink peppermint tea. I should avoid caffeine. Oops I love my strong coffee. Raw food is good for people who are heaty! Huh? This is in conflict with damp again! I should eat more f

I came across this online article. Be blessed reading it! http://www.trinity.net/PageFiles/2551/From%20barrenness%20to%20posterity.pdf

I told you that I would write a post to share with you how to receive Christ. Basically, why do people even consider becoming a Christian in the first place? Usually it is because they have huge needs in their lives. Some people can remain sane and continue thinking happy thoughts. Others just spiral downwards and if no one saves them, they will spiral right into bitterness or worse, depression. I believe I belong to the Others category, therefore, I need Christ. So, what is the meaning of I need Christ? Accepting Christ and becoming a Christian is not about going to church and donating money to church. Many pre-believers have this misconception. They think that they need to be very serious about going to church before they want to accept Christ which is to become a Christian, otherwise, they are hypocrites. This is not biblical. You do not have to go to church to become a Christian. All you need to do is to say a very simple prayer ALOUD with all your heart. Sinner's Prayer