Land of Lemons

I am blogging this to share with readers who want to know the actual procedure in greater detail. Reported to NUH Fetal Care centre and waited for Prof to arrive Battled with fear. I read about it online. I chatted with a friend. I knew there would be no excruciating pain but I was very scared. I could not even trace where the fear came from. Finally my turn. Butterflies in stomach. It was the same sonographer. I made sure I addressed her loudly,"Hello, DOCTOR!" I thought I saw a smile creep into her face. Sonographer did a scan and NT was the same but baby has grown by a day. Cystic hygroma still stuck to the neck Another nurse arrived. Both of them prepared me for the CVS like informing me that my hands have to be placed above my head and briefly the procedure.  Prof arrived with another female doctor.  Prof did a scan to locate the placenta.  The mood was like a market because the medical staff were talking and Prof was in a rush because he had quite a fe...

There is nothing much to blog about this day because the next two days would be the days that would shake my faith. We found a secluded corner to sit and waited. My name was called and a sonographer guided us into the scanning room. I mustered all my faith and wished for all these nonsense to stop. I visualised with all my might that the baby's NT was normal and the oedema was gone. Please tell us that our baby is fine. Please ... The sonographer would excel in one game - Poker. She had such a poker face when she was scanning. She was cold and clinical. We could see the monitors clearly and I was so amazed with NUH scanners. They were definitely clearer. I could see clearly that the baby had a hump like looking thing on his neck and bouncing around. I knew something was wrong but I never expect this ... Never ever ... Because we could see what the sonographer was doing, she typed 7.7mm under NT. My heart went cold. Instead of NT becoming smaller, it jumped to 7.7mm. ...

8am OMG ... It has been three weeks plus since my MTPT. The bleeding has reduced to spotting. Yesterday night I bled so much all of a sudden that the whole pad was soaked, staining the undies, sheets, protector and mattress! When I woke up to pee, the toilet bowl was a bloody mess. I coughed and out came a huge blood clot the side of a kiwi. I felt so dizzy that I had to lie down. Now I am thinking what I should do. Should I go A&E or wait for my scheduled appointment with Prof Biswas in the afternoon? 3pm After my bloody show, I decided to observe. If I continued to bleed or have cramps, I will go to A&E. But thankfully, the bleeding subsided so I decided to wait for my appointment with Prof Biswas. I told Prof what happened and he was interested to see how my clot and pad looked like. When he knew I had taken a photo, he said,"show me show me..." After that, he told the nurse that he would have to scan me. We proceeded to another room for the scanning. Initially...

When I found out that I had to go through a Mid Term Pregnancy Termination (MTPT) instead of a DnC, I was so down that I burst out crying in front of Prof Biswas because I thought there was no way I could be conscious and yet deliver my 13 week baby girl. After we have gotten home, I went home to ask Google for anyone who could give me an actual description of the process but I could not find any. All of the accounts are of emotions of guilt and depression. The other clinical articles are too brief. I have a close friend who unfortunately, has gone through this process, has shared with me and prepared me. So, I have decided to post an entry while the process is still fresh in my mind. ... ... As my gynae is now Prof Biswas, the MTPT would be done in NUH. We chose A1 ward because I wanted to ensure that I wanted privacy as the whole process would be carried out in the ward room. For those who want to opt for B1, they do have a special single bedded for B1 but it depends on availabilit...

It is with much sadness that I am writing this post. I have not been posting for three months because I was pregnant. I have been looking forward to yesterday because I would have been 13 weeks - the end of first trimester for the very first time and I could not wait to share with you my joy. Never did I expect that my joy has once again dissipated into something that I do not even know how to describe. During my 12 week scan last week, the gynae (Dr Fong Chuan Wee recommended by Physician Tan Siew Buoy) found anomalies on the baby's neck, chest and abdomen on Monday. He referred us to Prof Biswas to do a second scanning. He whatspped Prof and managed to arrange a scan the next day. The scan showed that the baby's NT (Neck Translucency) was 7.7mm. This is a strong indicator that the baby could have abnormal chromosomes. The normal range was usually below 2.5mm. The baby's chest and abdomen also have skin oedema (abnormal collection of fluid) which is an indicator of major...