Starting afresh

In a flash, you and I, are in May. We are approaching the halfway mark of 2015 and I could not help but wonder, 2015 once again, is not The Year. No matter how hard my heart longs for each passing year to be The Year, every year turns out to be a continuous cycle of renewal of hope. I am trying to find a new blog title because I am so sick of hoping. It means that I haven't arrived. But what, I have yet to come up with anything meaningful.

I have not written for some weeks because I have not mustered up anything positive to share with you. Sometimes, I feel that I am such a drag if I continue to air my grievances online. Or maybe, I am sick of myself.

Finally ... something nice to write about. I broke the cycle of falling ill, recovering and falling ill. Strangely, it happened after my pastor told me to not have high expectations on my wounded physical body. I slept better too.

I also changed the cover page of my blog. After such a painful experience, I need to start afresh fast. I chose that picture because the woman looks so free and happy. Yes, maybe, I shouldn't rush it but painful memories are awful. I started a series of buying happiness. I spent money if it makes me HAPPY. So what did I do?


  • I saw a private sale for branded bags in one of the 5 star hotels in town. I saw a Prada small sling bag and fell in love with it. Usually, I would just fall in love with it and walked away. But this time, I told myself, "Life sucks, what the hell!" So, I bought it for over a thousand bucks. A tinge of regret but tons of endorphins. Every time someone says the bag is nice, it is a jolt of endorphins in my blood stream. 

  • I went for a facial to fix my dull skin after all the stresses. I ended up very angry because the manager came into the room in the middle of the facial and kept pressing me to buy a $198 eye massage with some bull horn. 

  • You wouldn't believe it. I bought a car to cheer myself up! I used to drive a small Spark. I decided to buy a white Avante with nice big rims and dark film. Sexy and sporty. Huge. Longish looking. Yums. Of course, it is a five year old car that costs $57 000. I am still sane enough to spend within my savings so Avante is all I could afford.

  • Making myself look prettier to me is one of the things that makes me happy. I mentioned "to me" because it doesn't mean that the things that I have bought would necessarily make people think I am prettier. For example, I bought eyeliner and used it on my eyes but my husband did not realise that I have put on make up. I also bought many pairs of sparkling Korean looking earrings. It makes me happier thinking which pair I should wear to work. Things that sparkle dazzle me. But I am not so crazy yet to spend on diamonds. I also bought gold as in real gold accessories. I feel less guilty when I buy gold. When I buy gold, I con myself into thinking I am investing. The truth is, I don't really sell it to make money and also, I seldom wear them because they are hard to match without appearing very oldish. But, the point of purchase, is the happiest moment.

  • I started to join in The Queue of mad people who look happy walking away with cups of whiteness and large green spoons. I have eaten many cups of Sanum and am still eating it. I am so thankful for llao llao. I always look forward to what crunches, what fruits but always chocolate sauce. Every Sanum takes me about 10 to 15 minutes to eat. And during that 10 minutes, it was just Sanum and me and nothing else. No bad thoughts. Just shiokness after every green spoonful of yoghurt. 

  • I spent a bomb in places like CrabTree and Evelyn and Bath and Body Works! Their stress relief bathing gels are ever so relaxing. Anything that makes me smile ... 

  • I love to write. I am in the middle of writing a light hearted romance story, inspired by Sophie Kinselle and Marian Keyes. But when Fifty Shades of Grey came into the market, I wanted to write on Vanilla Love. In the end, I could not decide if I wanted to write something light-hearted but with a serious theme or a book with explicit images of sexual undertones. 

  • I also purchase books. I love to read. Marian Keyes was supposed to make me laugh but two of her books make me cry. The third one that I am reading now is also very sad. I will post something just on what I have read when I have more time. 

I am ending my laundry list here. I am going to choose Stress Relief shower gel from Bath and Bodyworks and then, curl up in bed, all prepared to enter the world by Marian Keyes, forgetting about mine...


Comments

  1. Gillian13 May 2015 at 00:37

    Every time I read your blog, I feel that you and I are of the same heart leh!!! OMG, we are probably twins separated at birth. I do exactly the same as you... Retail therapy helps sometimes... even though it is only for a short while but it helped during that short while.

    P.S. I bought myself a new Chanel and I tried to convince myself it has a resale value. Hahaha! And High-5 on the gold purchases. *hehe*

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  2. Unknown13 May 2015 at 00:45

    Wow a Chanel!!! I regretted so much not buying it when I was in Europe. Its value kept increasing! Hahahaha yah not many people buy gold... High Five! I don't know if it is jinx or what, the moment I blogged that I am well, I am feeling sick again! But should be the unbearable heat yet over air conditioning.

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  3. Gillian13 May 2015 at 23:29

    The weather is really no good, please do take care, my dear! Drink lots of water!

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  4. Anonymous15 May 2015 at 02:13

    UAP here.
    I support the idea of Chanel! And good news is that they have since lowered the price in Singapore for about a month plus now, on their classics so the prices are more comparable (though still very high) to their European peers although of course you can get tax rebates in Europe. But if you really like it, just go for it! Imagine a brand new shiny Chanel sitting in the passenger seat of your car!

    I like this Verbena showergel (yellow in colour) from Loccitane. Smells like lemon and whenever I use it (use sparingly, only for days when I want to smell nicer or when tired/stress), it makes me feel so relaxed.. ahhhh. Try it if you do walk passed Loccitane. :)

    Just do whatever that makes you happy and within your means. :)

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  5. Unknown15 May 2015 at 05:48

    Yeah maybe after a while, I should go on a long holiday to Europe again! But that would mean a huge hole in the pocket ... Cool, I will try when I walk pass it :P I loveeeeeee nice shower gels ...

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    1. Anonymous22 May 2015 at 00:59

      UAP here.

      Just go for the Europe trip if it makes you happy! I am not a rich person but I believe in going for travels if we can.. The world is just sooooo big and we have so limited time so just go while we can! :)

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  6. Anonymous10 December 2016 at 19:54

    Hey gal, thanks for sharing your experiences for it is comforting to know that one is not alone. Do avoid eating cold stuff like yogurt etc. All the best in your future endeavours.

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