Health after MTPT and D&C

Although I tried my best to do my mini confinement through diet and tried to rest as much as I could, I still could not escape the very thing that I dread - the cycle of falling sick and recovering and falling sick within a few days when I returned to work.

I was very discouraged with my cycles of sickness until my pastor told me this - "You have certain expectations on yourself. Therefore you feel discouraged. It is very natural for your body to react this way because your immune system has taken a hit. Give your body some time."

Physical Health

What kind of sicknesses?

Initially, I felt dizzy and weak after walking for example, one round of Ikea? I also had to eat frequent meals. Otherwise, I would feel very dizzy. The situation improved after I took some iron pills prescribed by Prof Biswas but I stopped taking the pills because I had sore throat. I took some Danzen. Recovered. Shortly, I developed chills and running nose. Recovered. I developed sensitive stomach. Recovered. I had constipation for days. Suddenly, I vomited violently and got a fever. Recovered.

I also find myself perspiring more and at weird places. The area at the back of my knees are always perspiring! My inner thighs too... :(


Felt like singing a little cheer to cheer myself up - Look on the bright side look on the bright side ...

Well, at least now, I don't feel so dizzy and weak.

Emotional Health

Emotionally, the violent sobbing is gone but I would still wake up occasionally feeling like it is the end of the world - like yesterday. I woke up, feeling odd. Throughout the day, I just want to be alone. I decided to ask my sister out and we went to KFC. When she was doing her monologue of her daily activities, I started tearing. Quite a while ago, while I was driving, I also started tearing. Last week, my colleague caught me in a moment of weakness. I was sick with fever but I still had to do overtime to run an event for a client. I felt so sorry for myself when a colleague popped over to check with me if she had to order new lights for the event and if I could make a decision. Tears just started to well up in my eyes. Heavily pregnant, she reached over to hug me. Tears just flowed. She asked me to go home but I told her I could not find any replacement at such a last minute since I was the in charge of this event. I took a panadol and some other pills and soldiered on. Thank God I survived and recovered after a good night of sleep.

Relationship wise, I felt that I have withdrawn from everyone. Suddenly, it weigh a ton to build relationships. I still crack jokes here and there but my heart just feels far away.

Angry. Sure I feel that way. Am I at the final stage of grief? I am angry with God, with the situation, with friends and family, with my husband (when I have nobody to blame, usually I will think about my husband. poor him), with myself.

Suddenly, I feel that life is very monotonous. You spend some time trying to find your partner - which is not very easy for some people. Then you have kids. Then the kids ignore u or take you for granted. Then you grow old and ugly. Then you grow sick. Then you die. How awful ...

I really have to find a new perspective soon.

Recently, my ex messaged me some random message. We had not kept in contact. Thank God, I was very disgusted with him and absolutely done with him when we decided to break up. Imagine if I was still missing him, and there in my moment of weakness, he messaged me?

At this point in time, are you wondering if my hub knows my ex has messaged me. Of course he knows! Just to keep him on his toes!

I am very tired now. I need to zzzz. After my MTPT and D&C, I realised that I fall sick when I am too tired. If you unfortunately have gone through MTPT, please take things very slowly even if you feel that you feel fine. Give yourself a couple of months to recover. Otherwise, you will end up like me - falling sick over and over again. Eat more fruits and veges and drink water!

Nite! Goto sleep to prepare for my exhibition tomorrow!